The Oddly Good Times pt. 1

Art by Bocian

So the past few posts begs the question. Were there every any good times between Hipnos and I? I mean, I loved the guy there had to have been some good times, right?

And there were. I mean, when he wasn't raging or needing me like a parent, he did have a sweet side to him. Though looking back it's rather difficult to believe I suppose.

The hardest thing with Hipnos was when he wanted to love you, it was always his terms. You could never do it on your own terms or discuss it. It was always his terms. One of my largest complaints when I was with him was that I needed love and when I expressed that it would sometimes be a hassle for him. "You can't pause an online video game."

But we had our moments, I guess.

Hipnos loved medieval stuff. Dragons, fantasy, knights, swords the fucking works. So when he first moved in, I thought RenFest would be a good idea. Renaissance festivals are always filled with something decent (and for me it was the food, at least when I was kid it was the food).

RenFest is a massive shopping exhibit. Yea there's some shows you can go to, but most are there to shop. Money was tight, so we did what we could. I remember when we entered the sun was just overhead. It was already hot. Even in Fall the 90 degree weather does not leave the gulf.

I remember we walked around so much. There was this fox fursuiter there who had this really stunning suit. Centaurs everywhere, and the dudes from that movie 300 (I guess time travel was a thing??).

We caught a couple of shows. They were mostly cheesy but we got a good laugh out of them. Dead Bob I think was one of the shows. We stopped to listen to this one band. Hipnos said he recognized the song. It was from a band called Garmarna.

One year for his birthday, I got him all their CDs cause I knew he loved them. They were a folk band I didn't understand. They did mostly Swedish folk music. he would listen to this band for hours. I'm not sure if he ever listened to the CDs I got him as Youtube was his main music source.

This band wasn't Garmarna, but they were doing a song from the band. That was probably the one thing he would remember the most from that day.

We found this chapel area in the fair. People actually got married there. It was so romantic. So, we took a picture together. We didn't take many. Hipnos hated photos, but I was lucky to get this one.

Looking back he isn't smiling. I can't help but read a lot into that.

I like to think this is one of our happier moments. A moment that felt like, yea, after all the shit we created, we might could make it work.

The next post or so, I'll search for more good times. But there are some other tough posts coming up. I wish I could tell this all in chronological order, but the brain doesn't sync up that way unfortunately. So, bear with me.