I was so nervous on my first trip to see Es. Literally nervous. I mean, those usual fears of "what if he doesn't like me" or "what if we don't click" were there, but I also had to worry about Hipnos.
Hipnos and Es broke up a week before the trip happened. Originally all three of us were going to meet, but after that part of the triangle split, it became me and Es. Essentially a V shaped relationship.
But I went anyways. I didn't know if things between me and Es would work out, or if Hipnos would try to start some bullshit (which he did as is classic him), but I knew I had to at least see what was waiting for me on the other side.
I'm glad I did. When I saw Es at the airport, I thought he was way more stunning in person. #justsaying I mean, Es is really an attractive person, and he's fucking smart, and goal oriented. It was like, when you win the lottery, and you can't believe it. It was one of those moments.
The first time we had sex it was the next morning. Es had been teasing the fuck out of me most of the night, and I think at some point I said something that I can't remember a then rammed myself inside him. It was a good moment for the both of us.
Our first date was at a Japanese restaurant. We've eaten there a couple times already, but I always forget the name of it. It's got food and the shit is good (phrasing!). I remember thinking how nice it was inside; and then Es started speaking Japanese to the chef and I thought he was flexin' on me. I felt like Texas date like "oh lookit that, my man knows another language??" Like damn.
If there was ever someone out of my league, it's definitely Es.
He made dinner for me that week, and I helped at some point. I pretty much tagged along with him wherever he went.
I remember thinking that being with him felt, comfortable. I learned later he's crazy adventurous, but I didn't feel any pressure to try to impress him or be anything I wasn't. I just had to be me, and things grew naturally between us.
Sex was amazing with him. Some light bondage, a couple of sex games, shower sex. We fucked a lot. I mean like a lot a lot. Not something I'm used to haha! Hipnos' philosophy was "I just don't need sex, that's what masturbation is for." Es took on a whole different mindset and goddamn was it on.
Hipnos did start shit. He was hella upset that I was up there. he kept saying that he shouldn't have let me go. Why did we even think this was a good idea, etc. etc. I didn't know how to handle it. Poly was fairly new to me. And I couldn't find a way to put one lover aside while setting time for the lover I was with. Ignorance ain't an excuse though. I know this pissed Es off, but I was so thankful he didn't just break it off with me. Most folks would have. He's crazy #justsaying
It was definitely a long week, but it wasn't long enough. For either of us at least. He didn't necessarily want me to leave, and I sure as fuck didn't wanna go either. But I left.
I left a note on his desk, though I couldn't tell you the particulars now. That mofo left fuckin spiders in my bag and I found them on my toothbrush. He's adorable though. If you ever meet Es, he's literally the best in this world. #nolie
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